and....

and........ nothing.

Feels anti-climatic doesn't it? Well, that's how our last few days have been. Things seem to be moving along, we're gearing all... all the signs are there....... and.... nothing.

We have a game player here ladies and gentlemen. Magenta is officially laughing at all of us, and is working on her own time schedule. After so much excitement at our last doctors visit, this weeks' was a bit more subdued.

To get technical- I'm still only about 1/2-1 inch dilated and 50% effaced (no change there). Her head has moved down even further, but my cervix, although shortened, is still in the back. So for those that have no medical background- it means that "things are moving along, but nothing is eminent"

Basically I was told to go up to the front desk and make my appts for the 41st week... ahhhhh!

Our due date isn't until Monday, so we're trying to stay positive that I won't go into 10 months, 1 week, and all the walking / stairs / jumping jacks that I've been doing will start to kick in.

Good news is that there are days that I feel just fine- like today. She's just chilling, so I'm just going along with my every day routine (as a stay at home pre-mamma, that "routine" involves a lot of Burton time... and trying not to poke my eyes out). Other days I'm completely exhausted, my insides feel like they are on a roller coaster and I'm ready to have Chris sit on my stomach so this child has no where to go but out.

But most importantly, Magenta is in good health and that's what is most important (ahh yes, there are my maternal instincts). It was great to see her sucking her thumb in the sonogram today (sorry though grandmas, no good pictures- her hand kept getting in the way). She measured 6 lbs 13 oz - nice and small (keep that up child!)

If she keeps up this relaxed behavior, we def. know that she will be just like her daddy- ready to chill. (my child would have been out and about 2 months ago with a to-do list all ready to go). So it's probably a good thing that she's still content to float around some more.

A list of love

These last few days have been a bit rough. Just give an update, my last day of work was Friday. Just stopping that was a bit of a shock to the system. I was now throwing myself full on into "Mommy" role... or at least "prepping to-be mommy" role. This end date was a week earlier then originally planned, because work had just gotten a bit too physically overwhelming. My body wasn't keeping up with the demands I was putting on it, and I needed to scale back.

After ending work on Friday (and saying at least a temporary good-bye to my friends and kiddies), a few nasty physical things began to happen (as you can read in the previous post).
But as I was resting today I realized how much I want to not only cherish this time off, but when I look back on the pregnancy, remember the amazing parts of it.

So here is my list of love- the amazing things that have happened over the last 9-10 months

- Feeling her hiccup (there is nothing like feeling / watching your stomach jump each time, to really make you realize the little being that is inside of you)

- Having Chris put his hand on my tummy to feel her move. It's like connecting all 3 of us together.

- Looking back over the pictures of my growth, and really seeing the changes that have taken place (or the not-so existent changes- I really didn't start showing until almost the 8Th month- incredible!)

- Folding and re-folding all of her little clothes, and imagining her actually fitting into them (some of them look SO small!)



- Having Burton drape himself over my stomach b/c I swear, he can feel her moving


- Seeing those sonogram pictures of her, and hearing from the doctor that she is doing great (and has long legs!)

- having "mommy-brain", where I can't remember simple words or phrases, and knowing it's b/c so much of my juice is going towards her!

There are plenty more, that as I think of them, I'll add. I really just want our little girl to know how much she is loved, even before we get to know her.

Lies...

Don't ask a 9 1/2 month pregnant woman how she is feeling unless you really want to get an ear full. If you get the "oh, I'm doing great! Everything is wonderful" response, just realize what you just heard was a bunch of lies.

What she really wants to say is that everything is swollen- holding small things such as pencils, cups, or even the hair brush hurts her hands. (this picture is of my wedding ring, which once did fit on my finger)

Her feet no longer resemble a foot- rather, it looks like she has fat caterpillars (not that hairy ones at least) attached to flippers at the end of her legs. She is aching in places she didn't know she could ache. Her hips have now spread so far apart, the waddle is no longer the "joke" she thought it would be that lovely place called 2 months ago, but rather how she gets from place to place. A rash has taken up residency on her appendages that itches like crazy, and no, she doesn't feel the least bit pretty.

So rather then ask "how are you feeling" just give all 9 1/2 month pregnant woman a compliment, because you know what, they need it.