So we are going on hour 5 of Jocelyn staring at us with her big blue eyes... and it's 3am (so I'm apologizing early if this posting has some grammatical errors, or just doesn't make all that much sense!)
It seems that our little one just doesn't feel the need to sleep.... for hours at a time. This afternoon, she was awake for 4 hours, and now 5 tonight... I feel that the time to be concerned maybe upon us. But at this moment, all I can do is place my foot on the bouncy seat (my arms are exhausted from swinging her), raise the volume on the vacuum cleaner sound (have to love downloads- just downloaded 1 hour of blissful vacuum sounds), and try and keep myself sane.
The hardest part to all of this is knowing that tomorrow is not the weekend, so I am all by myself with Jocelyn. This has been one of the biggest things I"ve been struggling with- the feeling of isolation. Chris has been amazing- getting up at night for feedings, coming home from work during lunches, etc, etc. But in the end he has to do his job, which is working, so I need to figure out how to keep myself from feeling completely overwhelmed by the task in front of me.
Prayer has def. played a big part- b/c at 3 am, what else are you going to do?! But these are def. the times that I wish we had family members close enough that I could pop by for a visit and some relief.
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